awakening

not as tired today
worked out this morning and had a good healthy breakfast.

Next, finish working on this program that is giving me fits, nobody that has worked on either of these programs is with our company and it's proving more difficult then I originally imagined.

tired, defeated, deflated

notice there are no capitol letters in the title of this post.

it's cause I'm just too damn lazy to hit two keys at the same time right now.

i am tired.
i am defeated.
i am deflated.
i am dan

No TV

So i've been without TV for a little less then a week...

guess what, I love it! I'm sure the tickect 1310 AM ratings love a new evening listener too.

Glasses

I was told four years ago that I could use some glasses and I could possibly fail a driving eye exam test. so about three years ago I went to an eye Doctor and actually got a prescription and a set of glasses thinking I was just being frivolous buying something that I "didn't need"

well It's been several years and I have gone no where while awake without them and last night a lens popped out so I need to have them repaired. I'm going insane without my glasses now... I feel like I've had a drink our two cause I'm struggling to read my screen :(

so, so frustrating!

Leg workout

Yesterday I had the oppurtunity to do my first leg workout in ages with my son... he said he hasn't worked out in a while either so we took it "easy".

we started with a warmup set of squats then did 3 working sets.
3 sets of good mornings (hamstrings)
walking lunges with 35lb dumbells the length of the gym
3 sets leg curls
2 sets of leg extensions

fairly light workout for our first one in a LOOONG time...

my legs this morning have two words for me... (Fuck You!)... they are sore as shit, good thing Sunday is off day...

On a different topic I'll be dropping the kids off at the youth church service at 5 tonight, Daniels pretty excited to go though Cora doesn't seem to interested yet. She's only been to the sunday evening one once before if i'm correct and i'm sure she'll begin enjoying it more as she makes more friends there.

I wish I could have done more with them while they were here but the pool was too cold to swim in, (even though both of them did jump in) haha... suckers! next time i'm hoping we can grill out and enjoy the pool some. maybe even catch a movie or something. I do know that they enjoyed walking over to yum-alicious so we'll probably do that again...

untill next time...

where to go from here

I have several choices I need to make in the near future that will greatly impact all of the relationships in my life as well as my own.

I'm not going to go into detail into the public domain about them, those that care already know enough about them and what they are.

I wonder what kind of person I am viewed as from an external persons perspective.

Random thoughts

Since my viewer ship (ha, like people actually read this shit) is pretty much non existent except for maybe a few people that may check in from time to time only to be bored with the topics i've written about. probably because most people aren't interested in dieting or workout details or my boring life, and are happy to run through there lives at their current pace, of work, eat, sleep with an occasional get away or vacation to enjoy their so called lives.

It's my estimation that probably around 80% of people working today work and cannot stand what they do for a living... sounds silly right? but i'm sure you've heard the quote that as something to do with if you enjoy what you do you never work a day in your life. yeah that sounds pretty simple but entirely out of the grasp of most people from a practical perspective. We have kids we need to support them, feed them, bring them up "right" get them the things they need to succeed so they don't fall into the same traps that we have as adults. We don't want them to make the same mistakes that we have throughout our lives.

So as I continue to ramble, what the fuck does one do to make their lives a happy overall experience? enjoy day to day life and not view everything they do was work, or a chore.

I've heard some people enjoy flying a kite or bowling or many other things that are lifes little distractions from that is otherwise a slave life we lead spending the majority of our waking ours doing something that others want you to do. Code this, write this, call them, attend this meeting... Fuck all of that, this shit can just get under my skin....

ok, I'm done with my cranky rant.

I lied.


I want to work out to get into better shape, however I think about what might be the perfect lifestyle which we were all suited for in the beginning. Gardening, foraging, hunting... our basic needs, food, shelter, water. if we focused on small scaled cooperative community functions of gardening, foraging, raising livestock / hunting we would be much better off, no TV's no sitting on the couch to check the latest episode of lost or whatever suits our obese nation at the time.

does any of this mean anything in particular? Nope just random rants about shit that has popped into my head.

I do have plans in my head how to accomplish community based living in a self sufficient manner that isn't destructive to the planet, from gardens, permaculture, livestock, as well as money making to pay our government their taxes to pay for community / public schools... but I'm not going to get into that at this point...

my brain is full, of insane ideas, some feasible, some off the wall. publishing all of the thoughts that go through my head would end me up in an insane asylum...