So I am told

As I learn and Grow I'm told different things by different people. I am perceived by others differently based on their current circumstances, thoughts, ideas, beliefs, etc...

I see today what I could not yesterday. Clarity and truth are always perceived, and my truth that the stream is 50 feet wide where I am standing and seemingly impassible, doesn't change the truth of the guy 100 yards upstream where it is only 2 feet wide and easily passable.

It's only by moving up or down stream can we can realize the differences in our truths, we need to be able to see what the other is seeing to understand his truth.

The state or quality of being serene, calm, or tranquil

God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (others)
courage to change the things I can (me)
and the wisdom to know the difference.

Pig and Rooster Sailor Jerry pencil drawing

So here are a couple pictures from last night that I sketched out with pencil / colored pencil.  I'll be posting more as I can get more done.  feel free to critque the onese I have here.

Piggy piggy

working on some basic colored pencil stuff, if you think you've seen this before it's because it's not original work... Basically i'm working on reproducing some Sailor Jerry flash in colored pencil for practice work. I'll replace this photo with a better one of the pig later tonight If I have time and can remember to do it.

weight gain and frustrations

So, Here I sit this Friday morning making my breakfast and thinking about the aspects of getting back into better shape.  After I stopped drinking a little more then two months ago i've put on a substantial amount of weight, (20 lbs to be exact) .  it's quite frustrating that I haven't made much effort to change my daily schedule to make the correct changes to lose the fat, but none the less here I sit.

I have all the knowledge I need to begin a new process again to lose the fat, so It comes down to making a decision.

Monday I begin.

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Learning to Let God In

I've mostly always had a belief in God, like most kids growing up I imagine have gone through what I did, denying his existence, all the normal things you hear people so, how could a loving God allow this, or allow that... One of the ones I've struggled with my entire life is my Brother Michael, he is a non functioning autistic. What that means is he cannot do anything for himself that a 'normal' person can, this includes feeding himself, using the bathroom, etc... those two alone should give you a pretty good idea of how severe his handicap is.

That being said I'm sure most people can understand how I might resent God, or rather resented God as I learn to let go of control and give him control over my life. Part of letting go is getting rid of this anger I harbor.

So today, like many times before, I am going to attempt to let God into my life and give him the steering wheel. I believe he can probably steer me better then I could ever attempt to.

I have a meeting with an HR rep today in regards to a new position, I'm honestly not even sure if I want the job, so that being said also... God I leave that decision in your hands, should I receive an offer for this job grant me the strength and direction and help me make the choice that best suits YOUR needs.

Thank you for being in my life.

Dan